we're gonna need those prayers again

They say these things happen in threes but I don't know if we can take another one. There was a shooting this morning at Central High School. MY fucking high school! Where I graduated from, where my kids are zoned to attend. In the damn cafeteria where I ate horrible meals and gossiped and giggled. Are you fucking kidding me?? This is supposed to be a peaceful, quiet community! We are supposed to be able to send our kids to school and expect them to come home ALIVE! They had all the schools on lockdown for a while which pretty much freaked me out. I couldn't have gotten Belle if I wanted to and that was a horribly unsettling feeling. Weston and I just came home from having lunch with her. There were several Central kids in there, some help out with the younger kids a few days a week and were already there, some were just coming so their parents who work there could hold on to them for a minute. There sat my sweet 6 yr old telling me how they had a 'stranger drill' this morning but it was real and they couldn't leave their room and her friend Haley's brother was at the high school where "there was a mean kid there hurting people with a weapon". omg. no no no no no no no no. Not here, not again.
As of right now, I see homeschooling in our future. I heard all those sirens wailing past my house, heading to the school and couldn't stop thinking about the panic all those parents must be feeling. They couldn't get to their children, they couldn't KNOW they were ok. It's all like a nightmare and I'm so sad for our community. We aren't supposed to be like this, we are supposed to be able to keep our kids safe.

My heart is breaking for Ryan McDonald's family, he was only 15 years old.
http://www.knoxnews.com/news/2008/aug/21/shooting-reported-central-high-school/